My Life Coaching experience with Stephen Hedger

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Those of you who used to visit this blog on a regular basis know my story and  what I went through and the help and guidance I received through my life coach – Stephen Hedger.  To those who don’t – well it’s all here!!   A long read but I think some of the pages and posts are helpful!

I stopped blogging on a regular basis last May as this blog had served its purpose!

However, I’ve noticed recently that a great many people end up here as they’ve used his name as a search term.  To help you find out how he helped me and the input I received from him here on this blog I’ve now created a ‘Stephen Hedger’ category so you can read his comments on various posts!

To anyone considering seeking help from him, all I can say is I thoroughly recommend you do!

Good luck with whatever problem or issue you have

Caroline
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My Steps along the Way!

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To any new reader who has just fallen on this blog for whatever reason, I hope you find it interesting and helpful.

For me this blog was one of my life-lines.  It gave me an important outlet where I could air my feelings and thoughts as I worked through the different emotional stages to where I am now.  Most of the posts are categorised into these Stages.

Stage 1 The Chilean Mine
Stage 2 Ground Level
Stage 3 Climbing
Stage 4 The Top
Stage 5 Flying

The comments and support were vital.  So to those who are perhaps at those initial stages of shock and horror of a relationship collapse – whether that be of their own choosing or inflicted upon them –  then  I hope the posts and Pages of this blog help you in some way.

The Debates/Discussion posts are worth reading as they are thought provoking and contain good life coaching assistance.

The Pages can be accessed either through the list on the right or the menu bar above.  I hope you find them useful.

Dipping into past posts gives an insight to the route I took.  But in summary here are some of the posts which I feel were important!

I’m in a new and better place

Reflective Moments

Real Men don’t Cheat and the following debate!

Vulnerability is the key to my success

Why I had the thoughts I had!

The moment my Goal started to take shape!  I’m just surprised it took me so long to realise it given earlier posts!!

And finally all those Poetry moments which came bumbling into my mind throughout!

The above only highlight a few of the steps I’ve taken but I defy anyone to wade through the entire blog!  I have done so just recently and found it fascinating – but then it’s been all about Me!!

Here’s to everyone’s happiness and brilliant future.  May you find your route and get to where I am today.  Eighteen months ago a large part of me didn’t believe it was possible! But it is!  I’ve surprised myself and in so doing found an inner peace and contentment which is great. My next goal is to find someone to share my life with!

This blog remains open to comments. And if I can help you in any way then please do get in contact.

Seasonal Festivities are almost on us!

I see that despite not posting anything for about 6 months I still have a  follower list!

Well just to let you know I’m still around!   Work keeps me busy and I have been doing some coaching – which I find incredibly fulfilling and I appear to be able to make a difference to those I coach – and a positive difference at that, which is great.

Do I still get low days?   Of course I do – I’m human!

But Goals are the answer.  Even if it’s writing the Christmas cards or sorting out ‘stuff’.  I’ve moved and am now in my own little house – which I own – so having all my belongings back from storage has meant a great deal of sorting out ‘stuff’!

And I did finally do the ‘shopping challenge’ set me by Stephen all that time ago!   (I had to go in to a shop and ask for something they didn’t sell!  – eg  A bunch of flowers in a phone shop). And I didn’t giggle!!

The effect of having achieved this was interesting.  Relief – that I’d finally found the courage to do it –  and a feeling of achievement that I could actually do it without giving myself away.   Also realising that it didn’t matter what the shop owner thought of me – possibly that I was insane – I couldn’t care – I know I’m sane and that’s all that matters!

I’ve had a few dates which have been interesting but not long lasting!

My goals for 2013 are to get more clients to coach and also to improve my social life

Caroline

 

It’s served its purpose

For several weeks now I’ve been pondering as to whether my blog has run its course.  It’s served its purpose and maybe it’s time to let it rest.

I don’t know. 

I never expected it to be so therapeutic.  I never expected to get the readership it has.  Wonderful people who I have empathised with and who have supported, encouraged, cajoled and nurtured me.  It has been humbling and amazingly touching.  You have been the people I shared every twist and turn of emotion with.  To whom I’ve bared my soul as I’ve searched for answers, faced things that I didn’t know I needed to face,   as I hunted for my route back to happiness.

I owe all of you a massive debt of gratitude.  Without meeting most of you I’ve nonetheless come to feel I know you all so well.

We’ve had fun along the way. You’ve made me smile and laugh. You’ve cheered me on when all I could do is weep!   I look back on the great discussions that took place here.  The fact that although we’ve had differences of opinion we have respected those opinions and chosen the words we have written with great respect for each other.  Thank you.

I owe a massive debt of gratitude to Stephen my life coach who gave so much of his time freely, either here on this blog or in the copious number of emails, texts and telephone calls.  I believe knowing about this blog helped him coach me because he could watch my mood swings and was able to (and did) pick up when I wobbled.  His incredible dedication and support to his clients is amazing.

Without him and the type of coaching he provided I would never have found my new direction in life.  One I am increasingly excited about and one which I know will meet my values head-on.

Yes I am now flying – sometimes I soar.  I don’t want this blog to pull me back.  It is in danger of being an anchor still linking me to the ground!    I’m not sure why.  It is what it is.

I am not going to disappear into the ether. I shall continue to follow all your blogs.  Try stopping me!!  I shall continue to comment when I feel I have something constructive, funny or amusing to say.  Or I feel I can be a valuable support.  But for now I don’t see me posting here.  I could be wrong. 

As it stands right now it has mapped my route from near suicide to the place of happiness I’m now in.  One I would have reached a lot earlier had Alex not dithered about coming back and fed me confusing messages on how he felt. But it was the way it was.  For me my space here now has a feeling of completeness.  (Feel free to disagree dear reader!)

I have a sister blog to this one which I’m considering activating.  One which is free of the angst of my past.  One which could be there for fun, silly stories and the new me.  I’m thinking about it!!  I do like writing so maybe that will be my answer!

So, for now,  a massive number of hugs to you all.  My special blogland friends.  You have inspired me and been there for me and for that I can’t find words to express how touched I’ve been.

This is how I see it today.

Tomorrow everything could be different…………………………!!

Caroline
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Enjoyment

“Enjoyment appears at the boundary between boredom and anxiety, when the challenges are just balanced with the person’s capacity to act”  – Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi – Flow

So with that in mind I’ve been considering how often I get bored and why!

I am – mostly – bored with my job.  I haven’t been over the last month or so as I’ve been busy programming a system which has stretched my skills sufficiently within my capacity to act but not to the point where I couldn’t solve the problems – hence I experienced a fair amount of enjoyment!

I enjoy coaching. When I coach I experience Flow.  I become completely absorbed in what I’m doing and the client in front of me.  To see a client have a breakthrough moment – never mind how small – gives me great enjoyment in seeing their pleasure in achieving something for themselves which they didn’t feel was possible.  Even when they don’t always ‘get it’ right away I get pleasure in helping them consider possibilities which they’d never thought of.

Carrying out a task can cease to be enjoyable when my capacity to act is thwarted either by my own inability or skill – whatever.

I am experiencing this in no small degree over my website!   My inability to configure and customise the pages the way I want them has dumbfounded me and left me frustrated and – I will admit – rather cross.  And since the only person I can get cross with is me, this has not been an enjoyable experience!!  And has left me fairly anxious.  I don’t enjoy ‘half-measures’!

My inability to ‘market’ myself is also rather irritating!  Much to my surprise I don’t seem able to sell myself!   So clearly I must now retrace my steps, reconsider this aspect of my goal and find a route which achieves what I want to achieve.  There is no point in ‘banging my head against a brick wall’!

Then there is the house-hunting!  Initially I found this boring, then I became anxious!  A happy medium is what I required.  Friends are taking up my cause – wow it’s lovely to know they are there. So great not to be doing this on my own.  I am feeling valued and supported which is great.  And actually having their support has now made the activity far more enjoyable!

I am not alone, I don’t have to do deal with all the issues of life alone.  People are available and often want to help!

And all help is welcome and enjoyable.

It’s great letting them into one’s life!