It really is a very good CD. I had forgotten.
The tracks are full of wisdom – given with wonderful, gentle humour.
Flanders and Swann had a brilliant knack of summing up important points in life in their cleverly constructed lyrics and melodies.
Tracks like “The Sloth” viewing life from upside down:
“making a smile of very frown”
“The armadillo” –
“Never tell a man the truth about the one that he adores”
And the lullaby to a sea horse is just plain beautiful.
I appear to be wallowing rather this weekend – lots more tears last night and this morning. Still at least I managed to sleep past the 3.00am slot which is a plus. 3.00am is a ‘killer’ – the world is a bleak place and my mind goes to very dark and dismal places at 3.00am and I have seen so many of those over these last 17 months. In fact I could almost count on the fingers of one had the nights I have managed to sleep through the 2.00 – 4.00 am slot.
If I wasn’t me I would be saying “She’s not taking this at all well!”
People say I am coping and doing well – I wish I thought so too.
Perhaps I am. Perhaps I am expecting too much of myself. But if I don’t then no-one else will and really if I am going to get through this – and I AM determined I will – I have to ‘tick myself off’ when I seem to be sinking back into my pit of despair.
At the divorce support group I went to for 10 weeks we had to draw a ‘road map’ showing where we felt we were at the beginning and then the end of the sessions. And then where we ultimately wanted to be. I feel as if I have been in reverse these last few days.
OK I know it’s probably to do with the Decree Nisi and I know IT IS only a piece of paper. BUT IT MATTERS!
End of ramble – I am off for an early morning walk