I have added a few extra words to my blog title…. “And I have”
That felt good.
Things that didn’t feel so good – in fact desperately sad – but needed to be done:
I have deleted all Alex’s emails and texts to me and mine to him
I have deleted his voicemail message to me on the answer phone (which has been there since last July)
I have taken down the photo of him and me together on holiday.
I have listened to Susan Boyle singing Who I was Born to be – which is how I feel today. I am playing it again and again. I played it in the car. This is how I genuinely feel – at last (I just wish I could sing!!)
I suggest you listen to it – the words are so important – whilst you read my most recent posts.
And for those who have only just arrived here you will need to go to the oldest post and work forwards to find out how I got to where I am today.