Well if nothing else what happened yesterday has given me something else to think about.
And right now it’s rather all consuming. I’ve just taken nearly 2 hours to get home from work but I can’t say I noticed. I can’t tell you what was playing on my CD player. I didn’t even notice the traffic! My mind was totally focused on other things.
Is this haunting me? Yes – to a certain extent at the moment.
But I’ve decided to let it for the time being. I think it has to. Now the genie is out of the bottle – I have to let it live for a while. Clearly it matters much more than I ever realised.
And I am NOT A VICTIM by the way! Never do I want to be thought of as that.
Far worse things happen to other people. So a sense of perspective is paramount. I am not going to turn this into a catastrophe by making it worse than it was. Even though it was a bad thing that happened.
I just need time to come to terms with everything.
What I’d really like now is a comforting hug! But as it is I’m about to go out into the snow on a charity pub crawl evening.
Madness!!! But I think it’s better to be out than staying in with my jumbled thoughts tonight.