My mind is being unkind!!
Either I don’t sleep – which is bad news OR
I dream – dreadful unsettling dreams – which is bad news!! Great! I so love night times!!
Last night I dreamt Alex and I were climbing a mountain through a forest. Lots of trees in our way and the path was very wet and slippery. For some reason we parted at one point and then spent a lot of time searching for each other. Occasionally we met up (good grief this is bearing a great resemblance to reality!) – but each time we did Alex kept telling me he’d been diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome (I have no idea where that came from – dreams can really be odd!) and so wasn’t capable of climbing the mountain or showing emotion.
This is all very well but I don’t exactly feel refreshed from a good night’s sleep.
And I am getting more excercise – I walked quite a bit in London on Saturday – OK I didn’t do much on Sunday but then it was freezing cold (that’s my excuse!). OK , OK – I need to do more and get fitter – I do know that! But I wasn’t going out cycling when it’s all icy – I sort of don’t need (or should that be “Kneed”) to do myself any more damage!
My Alexometer has been hovering around 2.00 – 3.00 for the last few days. Which is OK. It does go down on occasions when I just want to tell him to go to hell.
And yes I will admit to a Sunday evening dip when the Alexometer shot up briefly and I wished Alex was back – and no I don’t know what triggered it. It just happened.