To be writing this. But I am wide awake and wishing I wasn’t.
Somehow I need to shake off all this negativity which has been creeping around the edges of my mind. I really do need to do something new. The prospect of life carrying on as it is really isn’t that inviting. And I know the only person who can change it is me.
Focus on pleasure not the pain. Think lovely thoughts! Enjoy what I have!
It just doesn’t seem to be working at the moment. I think the novelty of moving has rather worn off!
Work is work – not that challenging or exciting. And home is home – challenging in a rather lonely, negative way and not that exciting!
And short of standing in the local High Street and shouting “Here I am come and get me” – which might not quite give the result I’m looking for (!) – I am rather stuck on ideas to make my life fun and enjoyable and to feel loved (which is rather what I thought Alex was for!! But has turned out not to be the case!)
I’m definitely having a Stuck at Ground Level moment