Just when I thought I was at last beginning to ‘crack it’, to feel I could actually stop caring, loving, whatever – I get an email from Alex. This had to be as there is STILL the final consent order to agree on the divorce – which he appears to be trying to ignore.
Anyway – No love (I emailed him recently asking him not to sign off ‘love Alex’ as I can’t cope). But he’s still saying how he wants us to be friends….. To be ‘amicable’ – whatever that means.
Anyway – a bit of opening up the wound. And I was SO determined that I was OK!
BU**ER – I’m having a down moment.
Notes to self:
- Think cheerful thoughts of all those suitors you’re going to get to feel!!.
- Go and do some French homework (I winged it tonight!!).
- Go to bed and watch TV!
- OK – I’ve made myself smile!!!