I will not and cannot step blindly into each task I am set. Be that in my job or, currently, in my life coaching homework. I have to understand the reason and also accept the reason is valid. I also accept that I can be wrong. I think I am pretty good at acknowledging when I am wrong.
99% of what I’ve learnt in my Life Coaching sessions I agree with. I may have been confused at the time. Even disagreed for a time, fought against some aspects and argued my case, but eventually I’ve understood and taken the next step towards understanding me and the future I can give myself – if I allow myself the opportunity.
It will be interesting to look back in a few weeks time and see if I finally did take the step and carry out the task Stephen set me over a week ago and I still haven’t carried out. Whether I do it and whether I do it for me or just to tick the box for him, so I can say “I did it” remains to be seen. Ultimately unless it’s for me it’s not worth doing – because this is all about me!
For now I don’t see the reason. So it remains on the ‘to do’ list. It may stay there forever. It may not. But I will not be pushed into doing something just to tick a box!! Intriguing nonetheless! Am I right? Or am I wrong? Am I digging in?? I can be very stubborn!
These views and thoughts blossom and die at speed as they flash through my mind, a bit like the mini forest of poppies in my rented garden. They have to have a reason to flower and bloom. Each one has its time. It lasts as long as it should (merely a day in the case of my poppies). Each sews the seeds of a new idea and I move on to view and look at the new blooms of tomorrow. Slowly I climb to the top.