Over the last 2+ years all I’ve wanted to do is hide. Not be seen. Not noticed. To disappear off the world’s radar.
Having discovered I’d failed so spectacularly at the one thing I thought I’d really succeeded at – marriage – I believed the best thing to do was vanish!
Now I’m re-emerging I appear to have a burning desire to stand out in the crowd again. To be the one everyone notices and notices in a good way.
I want to be the special one. The one others gravitate to. I appear to need a large dose of the limelight for a while. Now don’t get me wrong I definitely do NOT want to steal anyone else’s share! Absolutely not. I just want mine back – plus some!
There seems to be a massive urgency as well. Almost as though I’ve wasted the last 2 years hiding in my Mine. I know that’s not true. The process was one I had no alternative but to go through. To experience and yes, sadly, to suffer, and to suffer like I’ve never suffered before.
But now I’m on the mend and part of finding my feet again is to be noticed – or so it seems!
And – in case you’re wondering – I’m not going to paint my legs orange!!!