That’s what I still have to conquer. And I’m sure I’m by no means alone in experiencing this. This feeling that what I’m living through just can’t be really happening. That this – in some way – isn’t real.
Anyone suddenly faced with an unexpected trauma must have the same feelings – that feeling that somehow the earth has shifted on its axis and what was up is now down, what was black is now white.
And although I am undoubtedly a great deal happier than I was this time last year I still can’t believe he did what he did and that he now has a life and is doing things that don’t involve me. That he is happy – or happier – without me.
And good grief – given he left 30 months ago anyone with half a brain would have accepted the situation by now!! And I have! So clearly I have more than ‘half a brain’!
But – Sorry world it just doesn’t feel like it’s the right one!!!