Clearly my unconscious mind isn’t totally at rest yet and somehow I’d quite like to find a way of dealing with this unconscious behaviour. Because that, dear reader, is what it is. I’m sure of that.
When my alarm goes off (and now I have my nice, new, over-expensive all singing all dancing alarm clock I can choose to wake to Radio, buzzer (of the audible kind – I trust your mind wasn’t wandering to other thoughts!!) or my ipod) I wake with an incredible sinking feeling. A sort of “Another day to be got through” feeling.
Some mornings this is accompanied by an aching head – only cured by a dose of my favourite headache cure.
The low lasts usually until I reach the Motorway on my journey to work. Then my mood starts to lift, and as I’ve already said I get to Junction 13 and my ‘turned on moment’ which never fails to ‘brighten’ my day!
Usually by the time I reach work I’m OK!
On the days I don’t have to drive it can be a real battle to shift my mood into a brighter frame of mind.
I was going to say I’ve tried lots of things but since trying is not doing I won’t go there!!
I really want to wake every morning and feel Wow rather than Oh! A bit more Junction 13 – if you get my drift!! More of a feeling of wanting to embrace the world rather than avoid it!!
So in the spirit of doing so I need to delve further and find some more solutions!! No doubt this is called Growth! Which is fine I just need to find out how.
By the way I’ve stopped saying goodnight to Alex every night – I couldn’t face the thought of getting up and having to complete some unnecessary chore! (Which was the suggested cure!)