It’s served its purpose

For several weeks now I’ve been pondering as to whether my blog has run its course.  It’s served its purpose and maybe it’s time to let it rest.

I don’t know. 

I never expected it to be so therapeutic.  I never expected to get the readership it has.  Wonderful people who I have empathised with and who have supported, encouraged, cajoled and nurtured me.  It has been humbling and amazingly touching.  You have been the people I shared every twist and turn of emotion with.  To whom I’ve bared my soul as I’ve searched for answers, faced things that I didn’t know I needed to face,   as I hunted for my route back to happiness.

I owe all of you a massive debt of gratitude.  Without meeting most of you I’ve nonetheless come to feel I know you all so well.

We’ve had fun along the way. You’ve made me smile and laugh. You’ve cheered me on when all I could do is weep!   I look back on the great discussions that took place here.  The fact that although we’ve had differences of opinion we have respected those opinions and chosen the words we have written with great respect for each other.  Thank you.

I owe a massive debt of gratitude to Stephen my life coach who gave so much of his time freely, either here on this blog or in the copious number of emails, texts and telephone calls.  I believe knowing about this blog helped him coach me because he could watch my mood swings and was able to (and did) pick up when I wobbled.  His incredible dedication and support to his clients is amazing.

Without him and the type of coaching he provided I would never have found my new direction in life.  One I am increasingly excited about and one which I know will meet my values head-on.

Yes I am now flying – sometimes I soar.  I don’t want this blog to pull me back.  It is in danger of being an anchor still linking me to the ground!    I’m not sure why.  It is what it is.

I am not going to disappear into the ether. I shall continue to follow all your blogs.  Try stopping me!!  I shall continue to comment when I feel I have something constructive, funny or amusing to say.  Or I feel I can be a valuable support.  But for now I don’t see me posting here.  I could be wrong. 

As it stands right now it has mapped my route from near suicide to the place of happiness I’m now in.  One I would have reached a lot earlier had Alex not dithered about coming back and fed me confusing messages on how he felt. But it was the way it was.  For me my space here now has a feeling of completeness.  (Feel free to disagree dear reader!)

I have a sister blog to this one which I’m considering activating.  One which is free of the angst of my past.  One which could be there for fun, silly stories and the new me.  I’m thinking about it!!  I do like writing so maybe that will be my answer!

So, for now,  a massive number of hugs to you all.  My special blogland friends.  You have inspired me and been there for me and for that I can’t find words to express how touched I’ve been.

This is how I see it today.

Tomorrow everything could be different…………………………!!

Caroline
xxxx

19 thoughts on “It’s served its purpose

    • And thank you for giving your time and your thoughts in the great discussion. I look back on it with admiration.

      Bless you for such a wonderful contribution.
      x

  1. It would be sad if you did not post at all. The idea of a new blog, starting afresh sounds to be a great idea

  2. Darling Caroline,

    I would be lying if I said I am not going to miss you but I am also delighted that you have found your happy and will continue living it. You have been an invaluable support and resource for me and many others and it has been wonderful watching you bloom.
    I hope to see you soon in your new happy place.
    Tons of hugs and love,
    xoxooxoxoxoo – S.

    • I’m still going to follow you and watch your progress!

      It’s been a very tough decision to take but one I finally realised I had to!

      Lots of hugs to you too

  3. Oh, Caroline. You are flying indeed. I’ll miss your wit and determination, but I’m happy for your progress. A new day/life is at hand and isn’t that grand? You are very dear to me.

    • Thank you for your lovely comment. You are dear to me too!

      I’m not going to close it down. I feel there is too much here to do that.

      Maybe I just need to ;let it rest for a while. At least until the next stage of my life kicks in!!

      I don’t know!

  4. Its so great to hear about your confidence in the new you. If you decide to start blggging in the new Blog please let me know where it is. I get lost easily and without directions have no way of finding its address

    • Of course I will CD!

      As I’ve said on the other comments it’s been a tough decision to take and not one I’ve taken lightly!

      Sometimes it’s necessary to push oneself forward and I hope that’s what I’m doing!!

      xxx

  5. Oh just catching up with stuff after struggling to get my paper written for my course. I don’t want to miss you so you HAVE to stay around – send my links to your other blog. ALSO I am so pleased that this blog has served it’s purpose. You have worked hard and it’s lovely to have been able to stand on the sidelines and see your progress. Keep in touch! J x

  6. I apologize if I came to this blog too late, but if you don’t mind I might make way through some of your archives and read about your journey as I’m someone who likes to read good and truthful writing. I wish you all the best.

    • Carry on – it’s what it’s here for. To assist, if it can.
      It is totally honest. Nothing was kept hidden except the real names of those involved as this gave the freedom I needed to write it. The only person whose identity is revealed is the coach I went to – Stephen Hedger. An incredible man!

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