So vital in my life. My father was a concert pianist before the 2nd World War and so I was brought up with music. When my mother died my father turned to his piano as a form of therapy. He played nearly all day every day for a number of years and ended up recording 2 CDs of his favourite pieces. Some of which I have listed below.
The following pieces of music have played a very important part in my life since Alex left in February 2009.
I keep wondering why this piece of music is so important to me. So I have been doing some serious thinking and listening to it – again and again – and this is how I see it:
There are 7 distinct sections in this Impromptu and this is how I feel about them:
- This makes me feel very nostalgic. I remember all the good my marriage had in it, the love and affection and the sadness I feel for the loss of all it was to me.
- This is how I see my friends – all egging me on to take the steps to a happier future. A sort of “come on Caroline – you can do it” – full of love and encouragement – but huge uncertainty from me.
- The “Yes I can do it” moment. The first few tentative steps followed by more certainty and conviction that happiness is a possibility.
- The backwards step. Retreat. Indecision and a reluctance to let go. How can I justify giving myself a new future when I care so much for the past? I can’t and don’t want to re-write the past.
- The light starts to dawn. I can do it. I really do have a good future. I will be OK.
- The joy of finding the new me. I have succeeded. I am there. I have won.
- Calm reflection on what I have been through and an amazing peace.
I have uploaded the version I adore. This is Radu Lupu playing it – his interpretation of the piece is so strong.
The Sloth – Michael Flanders & Donald Swann: How I love the lyrics (which make me giggle) and the melody which is just beautiful!
Lullaby to a Seahorse – Michael Flanders & Donald Swann: Again wonderful lyrics and lovely music!!
Susan Boyle’s 1st CD – Who I was Born To Be:
This sums up where I am today (Nov 2010) and a feeling that I really have found the person within me who is who I am meant to be:
Brahms and Chopin Waltzes – my father plays on his CDs
Here they are: