There is a fine, fine line

From Avenue Q

Says it all really!!  I could do with paying attention to this.  Do listen – it’s not long!

Lyrics:

There’s a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There’s a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know ’til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There’s a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there’s a fine, fine line between “You’re wonderful” and “Goodbye.”
I guess if someone doesn’t love you back it isn’t such a crime,
But there’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don’t have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don’t think that you even know what you’re looking for.
For my own sanity, I’ve got to close the door
And walk away…
Oh…

There’s a fine, fine line between together and not
And there’s a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you’re still in your prime…

There’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

It really is all about GIVING

I’ve written about this several times before!  You only have to search my blog to find the posts!

The same message came through loud (very – given the volume of the music!!) and clear in Avenue Q.  All the ‘puppets’ cheered up and were happy once they started giving rather than concentrating on just themselves.  They gave to each other and so found they loved and were loved.  They ceased to take – which wasn’t making them happy at all.

Some very adult messages shone through loud and clear (and some very adult action in parts too….!!)

So what stops us giving.  Or to put it better – giving in the right way.

Alex gave – presents. Quite expensive ones.  He gave me a complete wi-fit system just before we split.  But he wasn’t giving himself.  He was so (and maybe still is) focused on looking inwards, on feeling that things weren’t right for him, he never looked up and saw that actually finding out what I needed him to give just could have been the way out of his closed-in existance.

And what I needed was for him to give himself.

I thought I was giving him all he needed.  I gave him space to follow his hobbies.   I never accepted invitations without checking he wanted to go.

But as he became so focused on his inner self he ceased to tell me what he needed so I just had to guess.

So when did he stop talking?  We used to talk the night away when we were first together.  Fact.

And Why did we stop. Why did we stop focusing on each other.  Or at least focusing on each other in the way that made us both incredibly happy.

And now we both know we went wrong.  Why aren’t we putting it right?  Given we have both been shown that we could.

My LC kept reminding me through my sessions:

“What you focus on is what you get!

So how come – since happiness is what I want – I can’t focus on happiness and so Get It.

Perhaps in my currently muddled mind I have this deep-rooted belief that if I focus on Alex long enough I’ll Get Him!

Who knows!!  It’s a thought though!

The sun is shining.  I need to get going. Take photos.  Give out campaign leaflets.

Live through another day!!

And decide to really enjoy it!!

Avenue Q

Wow what a musical!   Brilliant.  I recommend it to you all, dear readers!

Fantastic, philosophical songs which really make you think.  Very funny in parts, very thought provoking.

And actually really good for those in the same situation as I currently find myself in!

The UK version is on tour at present and just arrived at our local town for a few nights.

I’m really glad I went!

I wonder if there’s a CD of the tracks……