So this is My dream future – where anything is possible:
To run my own business.
My business will be a help centre which will provide a very safe haven for different types of therapy for people:
Life and Relationship Coaching
divorce support groups
Practical help for people on lots of issues
It should also be a drop-in centre too. Lots of free parking. And maybe a coffee/tea shop as well with books and magazines and newspapers – but I don’t want it all sandals and hippy!! And no scented candles – I so hate scented candles!
Where I live
In a lovely house with at least 3 bedrooms & 2 bathrooms. A study. A sewing room. A dining room. Sitting room and kitchen. A garage. Not modern. Fairly old so it has character but in good repair. With a garden where I can sit out but also grow vegetables and room enough to put food down for the kites so they swoop in to feed – then I can photograph them.
New look me. Slim legs. I stand up straight. I am funny and am having fun and buzzing. Interesting to talk to. I listen. I make people laugh. I am confident. Self assured. Significant. Loved. People gravitate towards me.
New clothes. New look. So I look well dressed but in a good way – not starchy. Trendy.
My new man:
Someone who is tall, slim, not too old – a few years either side of my age is fine. Who is solid and trustworthy, reliable, funny, teases me, cares for me. Wants to look after me. Won’t let me down. Will love me. Passionate – very passionate – but very understanding. Will help me deal with my ‘freezing problem’ . Will help me talk it through, who I can tell it all to, and be so focused on me I won’t feel tongue tied – I really want to be able to say and do anything and so I will relax and allow myself to abandon myself in the moment, to give myself totally – all the time!
I will be loved. Really loved. Unconditionally loved. Hugged loads.
But for now I want to be asked out by lots of men. AND THEY CAN ALL PAY! I want to be sent flowers. Lots of flowers.
People ring me up just ‘cos I am fun to talk to. I’m wooed.
I want to go on holiday. I want buckets of money so I can go on lots of holidays.
I want someone who wants to drive into deserts and look at the emptiness and wonder at it. I love the isolation of remote places.
When I’m not working:
I become a brilliant photographer and win prizes
I am the best actress in the am drams
I become a good glider pilot
I own a lovely glider
My novel is published and is a great success and is turned into a film – this gets me lots of kudos
My blog is THE BLOG OF THE YEAR. I get loads of hits a day and everyone is talking about it. It’s used by life coaches and psychologists as an example of how to get over a heartbreak. I want it to be better than “Eat Pray Love”.
THIS IS THE FUTURE OF MY DREAMS!
And this is only the start
There will be more to come as I add to this!