No bitterness, no nostaligic looking back just a sad acknowledgement
For me this says it all, and saying it all acknowledges my part in it all.
We loved each other – we just didn’t know how to express it.
And that’s what makes it so sad.
Because for him he didn’t have the courage to take that step to find out, so neither of us could.
This is why I want to learn how to help others. Because of what we lost. Because of what we could have had.
If I can learn to help others find a better route then a lot of good will come out of this.
I've Survived! and I'm "Flying"!! 
I think it’s wonderful that you are able to do something positive and productive with your experience and all that you have learned along the way.
The list of “questions” (which are more a list of concerns and problems) is very interesting. I recognize some of these! Alas, too late… 😦
I feel your sadness but I also hear your optimism and your eagerness to pass on what you have learned. You have a good heart. It will serve you well in this endeavor.
Yes, I recognise these too…And am still struggling with the notion that it is too late too 😦
Good for you for making something positive out of your dreadful experience. And I have faith that you will be a great coach, and will use your experience to help others… x